bck to brkn

Do you feel more like this rather than prancing around singing about halos??

Who’s with me?

halo … hello!! … hell!!!

Here’s how it starts. I hear this song and I think: “woow, that’s great. i can totally relate”. After some time I hear this song and go “Yeah, right”. But that’s just for a few moments till “Hell, F#*k, Damn” kicks in.

Happened to anyone else?

Nasty feeling. Just like hearing Santa’s not for real.


Pain is weird isn’t it? You’re tempted to hate it but then you realize it’s how you learn; about yourself, about others. So you try to chase the hating feelings away till it’s just you two left: you and the pain staring each other in the eye, raising eyebrows, grinning teeth.

I made a poll here a while ago. Is it better to wear your heart on your sleeve and risk getting hurt or should we protect it in an attempt to keep the pain away? Two thirds of the people who took part in the poll opted for wearing your heart on your sleeve. Do you think that’s best?

Time after time i find myself coming back to this place. My den if you will. I drag my wounded limbs back here, leaving blood stains all over the place. I look back and i see it’s all happened before. So what’s the lesson that keeps escaping me? What am I failing to learn? That people will always hurt you cause it’s their nature to put their needs first without a second thought? I’ve learned that. That you’re bound to get hurt somehow just because you’re alive? I’ve learned that too.

I seem to miss that precious lesson that will keep my soul from bleeding.

Any advice?

The Gathering

The best feature of the internet is not giving you the stuff you’re looking for, but giving you stuff you never knew existed that you happen to love.

That’s what happened with this next video that came up while I was searching for the videos below. Enjoy!

The Promise You Made

One of the best of all time. If you’ve heard it, you’ve loved it. haven’t you? 🙂

I know, what’s up with the hair, right? :))

And here’s a pretty cool cover I found. I was really surprised to see these guys cover this song.

And if you do love the song and are wondering about the lyrics, here they are, to the sweet music.

The point to all this? A great song stays with you for ages. Which was exactly what happened with this one. Thank you for the music guys!

… and many more

As I’m approaching 1.000 views I’m thinking it’s time to thank the people who read my posts or listened to the songs on here. The stats tell me that one picture in particular sent the most viewers to my page so here’s thanks to the author of the pic (starry_eyed_kid – don’t know the person but ‘well done mate’ :D). And more thanks to the almost 1.000 people who stopped by (most of them looking like they know a thing or two about broken hearts, feeling broken etc since that’s what they were looking for when probably Google sent them here).

So long story short, here’s the infamous picture

and a gift to you all. Enjoy and come again!

So Simple …

  • If you love someone, the greatest gift you can give them is your presence. – Thich Nhat Hanh
  • How can you come to know yourself? Never by thinking, always by doing. Try to do your duty, and you’ll know right away what you amount to. – Goethe
  • The intelligent man finds almost everything ridiculous, the sensible man hardly anything. – Goethe
  • A slave is one who waits for someone to come and free him. – Ezra Pound
  • As far as we can discern, the sole purpose of human existence is to kindle a light of meaning in the darkness of mere being. – Carl Jung
  • Nothing has a stronger influence psychologically on their environment and especially on their children than the unlived life of the parent. – Carl Jung
  • We cannot change anything unless we accept it. Condemnation does not liberate, it oppresses. – Carl Jung
  • And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music. – Nietzsche
  • Life is what happens to you while you are busy making other plans. – John Lennon

Suit Yourself

Papercuts on my heart

Poisonous snakes for veins

Reality blades piercing my skin

Turning my bones into metal hangers

For this old suit.

Broken since day one,

Sentenced to life

Chained to the stone

That’s dragging me onwards.

Blood-metal taste in my mouth

Deafening rings in my ears

Cruel todays, killer tomorrows.

Drag myself to the next moment

Naive child hoping for better

Adding wrinkles, patching holes

With false thoughts of self denying.

Hearts and Stuff

Glad to see that the XXX term is no longer the most popular search term that sends people to my page. Instead, broken heart matters seem to direct people here. Not sure if that makes me happy or sad. I’m happy that the quality of my visitors has risen but i’m sad to see that many people struggle with a wounded heart. But then again, that seems to be what life is about. Finding ways to cope with a broken heart and finding ways not to get your heart broken in the first place. I’m not just talking about lovers matters. There are plenty of ways your fragile heart can be wounded. If someone gets close enough to you, they get instant access to the “breaking of your heart service”. That is if you’re young enough, inexperienced enough, naive enough to think that your heart should be exposed. But it seems that if you protect yourself too much, you can’t “taste” many of life’s pleasures (love, closeness, friendship) and if you don’t protect yourself and leave your heart out for everyone to see, you risk getting hurt.

Here’s a poll to see how you guys go about it:

P.S. The beautiful photo above was created by NUFORMS. Thanks for the comment.

Tips and Tricks – ”Do”s and ”Don’t”s

Reaching almost half my life (don’t try to guess my age, we all have our own view on our life span😀) this is what I learned:

  • As long as you can ‘serve’ other people and their interests, you’re a good guy to keep around. As soon as you stop doing things for others, you turn into the bad guy and get discarded. So don’t try to please everybody hoping that they will all like you. You will only end up a miserable tool.
  • Get used to the idea that nobody gives a flying fuck about your needs or feelings. This way you won’t get disappointed as much.
  • Speak your mind no matter what. Your words and actions define you as a person. If you keep telling people what they want to hear and censor yourself you will only turn into a broken mirror image of the people around you.
  • Say ‘thank you’ whenever the case and don’t expect to be thanked in return. Nobody does that anymore.
  • People are guilty until proven otherwise. (This will also spare you a lot of disappointments and unpleasant surpises)
  • Learn from every experience and from those of others. A lesson not learned is a mistake you’re bound to repeat.
  • Don’t blindly respect the elderly just because you were told you are supposed to. They’re not wisemen, they’re just people with more mistakes than you and more morally corrupt (since they’ve been here long enough).
  • Don’t hurt other people in order to get what you want. That never works out in the long run.
  • Always have a plan. That will prepare you for the various outcomes of different situations and this way you won’t be left wondering what to do.
  • Don’t become a slave of food. People whose eyes glow at the sight of a meal are just sad and pathetic.
  • Also, don’t spend your precious time planning a meal. It’s not a ritual that’s gonna add meaning to your day. It’s just food. Eat it and get back to your life.
  • Don’t try to seem someone you’re not. It would be like wearing a see-through raincoat on your bare skin.
  • Clothes are only meant to cover your body. Spend too much time worrying about the ‘outside’ of you and pretty soon you’ll turn into an empty mannequin.
  • Don’t fear death but don’t wish it either. For the living, death is just a word. It’s only for the dead that it means anything.
  • Don’t waste your time eavesdropping. It will never bring you any good news.
  • Don’t kid yourself thinking you have friends. You will only have a friend at a time. Man is built that way.
  • Learn at least two foreign languages. In this day and age speaking only your native tongue almost makes you an illiterate.
  • Try to play an instrument, try painting or any form of art. You’ll be good at one of them, it will bring you joy and as it turns out it can be an efficient outlet.
  • Don’t let your outlet be another human being (especially not your own child). It won’t be fair to them and it won’t help you either.
  • Don’t see your child as a means to complete yourself. Think of yourself as a means to complete your child.
  • Never let anyone see you cry. ”Releasing bodily fluids” should always be done in private.
  • Embrace music. It will be a faithful companion.
  • Always consider other people’s feelings. It’s not rewarding but it would be a sin not to.
  • Don’t treasure gold and precious stones. It’s just stuff dug out of the ground. Just because other people like to think they’re valuable doesn’t actually make them valuable.
  • Love. It’s one of the few things that will add meaning to you as a human being and to your life.
  • Read. Books not glossy magazines. It will broaden your horizon and will send your mind to places it wouldn’t otherwise be able to reach.
  • Don’t dread work and don’t see it as a way to pay for your food. It will never bring you any satisfaction if you do. And always know the value of your work. Settle for less that you deserve and you’ll be a puppet. Ask for more and probably you’ll get as much as you actually deserve.
  • If you want something done, do it yourself. You’ll end up doing just that anyway so you might as well save some time and brain cells.
  • Don’t envy others and don’t try to be like them. Build your own self.

… I guess the list remains open.

What did your own life teach YOU?

I’d really appreciate your views so feel free to leave a comment.

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